Right now the only thing In my life that I can control is my weight. But don’t tell a therapist that…it’s the same thing those with eating disorders say!
But it’s the truth! I mean I’m constantly on a roller coaster of emotions every day…and you can look at my twitter or facebook updates and can tell the bi-polar level that I’m at right now in life. I’ve purposefully stayed off my blog until I could post something that’s not super negative or sad.
With that being said…today I stepped on the scale…I am officially 10lbs away from my pre-preggo weight. Not from my son, but from my daughter!!! I’m 173lbs and my size 10s are extremely loose! I was 163lbs and a size 8 when we conceived her…almost 8 years ago by a few weeks. We conceived her the summer of 2004.
Seeing my success in this area that I’ve struggled in for so long…it feels absolutely amazing!!! Wearing clothes I haven’t worn in years. Wearing clothes and taking off the tags one week, the next week them being looser…
No complaints really. Other than…it sucks that your tummy doesn’t change unless you put in some ab work…that’s no fun. And it’s been my weakness keeping up with my Pilates…but it’s my main focus because it’s not complete if everything is tight and toned but I still have the soft, flabby belly.
If you can recall some of the posts over the years…I wanted to reward myself for reaching these different milestones…the ultimate milestone was fitting my size 8 Express jeans from my pre-children days…and those babies fit last week! Tightly. But they fit and that’s the point! lol The only thing is, with me trying to save up money, and everything as usual seems to go wrong when you desperately need them to go right; it’s very difficult to reward myself.
For now, having success is reward enough in and of itself. Tomorrow {or tonight} I will order 2 pairs of pants from NY&CO bc they’re having they’re pants event and it’s always a perfect opportunity to get good pants for the office. If money was more abundant, I’d buy several pairs…but for now 2 will do. I think a nice massage or facial by my birthday will be a great incentive. I’m not sure yet…still debating. But it really does feel amazing!!!
Pics will come soon…my photographer {aka my 7 year old} can’t take a straight shot. My DH doesn’t understand why one would post pics of themselves {a whole nother story I’m not even going into}…so I’ve downloaded an app that I think may solve this problem…but haven’t played with it enough to know for sure.
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