I like to think of myself as a positive chick.
Overall speaking.
But sometimes…I can be negative.
I know all of the things…the Law of Attraction, that your thoughts control your actions, you words manifest…I know these things. So when I am going thru hardship I find that some times I can be in a literal tug of war inside of myself.
Because as positive as I can be and as faithful as I can be…negative thoughts can also creep in and tell me that I’m stupid for believing things will work out. I’m stupid for the mistakes I’ve made. Like so many awful things that I won’t even type out…they come.
So when the enemy comes on to your land…what do you do?
You have to protect your land.
You have a trespasser on your property and you own your land…well in my lovely land of America I have the right to bear arms. And lookahear pardner, you have till the count of 3 to get off my land or I’ll shoot you off my land.
Right?
Well it’s the same thing inside.
I have good days where the war is not going on.
And then I have bad days where I try to make the outside look normal, but inside there’s a full on war going on. The war between my faith in God, in myself, in the life I will have and everything else.
For the past few days I have been staving off a panic attack. Doing a lot of breathing exercises.
I’ve been emotional but thankfully I have avoided the attack.
So just after I read my devotional the other night, I came across this pic:
It was right on time.
If you read The Word for You Today devotional, I wanted to share this from March 16th’s passage:
Sometimes there’s a difference between facts and truth. The facts may confirm that the economy is bad, but the truth is, “God shall supply all your need according to his riches” {Philippians 4:19}
God wants you to look to Him and know that in your darkest moment you don’t have to be afraid. What you have going for you is so much greater than anything that comes against you. So rise up in faith and say with the Psalmist, “My help comes from the Lord” {Psalms 121:2}
Then act like you believe it!!
That was truly on time for me!
So no matter what is negative, whether it’s myself or my spouse or anyone, I will not accept it, I will only speak back to it what God has said to me.
I know after being spared from death and awful accidents in the past few months, that I’m here for a purpose. I feel like I’m tested left and right. Barely clearing hurdles. But I am more than a conqueror. I’m a fighter and I haven’t fought my last fight yet. Sure I have times where I feel very weak, but that’s when I ask for Jesus to keep me strong. I know I’m being groomed for something big. I know my testimony is gonna turn others lives around one day. I know all of these things. I just have to walk my walk knowing this and not letting it waiver or falter when the storm comes.
I posted this on my Instagram the other day…
I posted it after having an overall good day and then coming into the company of someone who was completely being negative. And I was sooo pissed at myself for even allowing that to seep in and change my mood.
I decided then and there that in order for me to succeed along this journey I have to guard my mind and my heart. I am in control of what gets in.
And lastly as I was finishing up this post, on facebook Joel Osteen posted this pic…so I had to share.
After some of the things I’ve gone thru… I know this to be so true.
I’m doing my first fast right now. Taking it pretty easy for the first one. But I can already tell the growth. In my relationship with God. I’m so truly thankful to know him and to have His love.
His timing is perfect. He knows exactly what He’s doing.
Be Blessed!!!
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