It’s the eve of my birthday and quite frankly, I’m just not excited. I’m extremely thankful to God for blessing me to see another birthday, I’m grateful for my life, don’t get me wrong. But I’m just not where I thought I would be at 28 ya know. I think this is one of my first adult birthdays that I haven’t had any excitement about. Well, let me retract that, I am excited that I’m off work tomorrow for the first time in months. I may have had a partial day, but other than that I haven’t had a full day off work (non-holiday and non-weekend) since June when Jordan was sick and I had to take a lot of my time out of the vacation calendar to cover me being off then. So I’m excited about not going to work tomorrow. But not about much else. I mean frankly, I’m not in a good place right now as far as my relationship is going. I don’t even know if he’s going to acknowledge my birthday tomorrow. Financially I thought that I would be so much further at this stage in my life. Instead I’m broke, but not broken. I don’t know, I’m just in a very emotional and lonely place right now. Not the way I wanted to spend my birthday. I try to stay positive. It’s just sucky tho. Just felt like getting a few feelings out without oversharing. I’m sure I’ll feel better tomorrow. We shall see.