In my mind I’m a true fashionista. In reality I’m a mom who once I had Brianna stopped shopping for myself and went into full on “I gotta buy everything pink for my beautiful baby girl mode.” Unfortunately that meant that mommy just buys basics when I absolutely needed to. And with Jordan, i’m in the “I gotta buy everything for my handsome little man mode.” I enjoy shopping for them both equally. I love all the new clothes styles I can get for Bri now that she’s older and the fashions have more style. And I love the cute clothes I get for Jordan because now that he’s wearing size 18 months, he looks so darn handsome like a lil boy. But what about me? Well I’ve always dressed cute and had as much style as I could afford when I was in highschool and college. I remember when I was obsessed with all things Tommy during my senior year in highschool. And every paycheck I bought something Tommy from Belk. I’ve always loved clothes and shoes and accessories, just didn’t have the money for it. And when I was working at Sprint when I got out of college, I had Brianna so that money didn’t go to my clothes, it went to hers. And when I did buy clothes, it was because I was losing weight, so I bought a lot of staples at Old Navy and Target.
I have recently rediscovered Kohls. I’m in love with them. I love that both their juniors and women’s departments have really cute fashionable clothes. I know that I will never be a junior size again. And I accept that. But tops I can do. And they have some of the cutest styles right now. So it’s my mission as part of my life makeover, to re-embrace my style, my inner fashionista. Because in my mind I have a great sense of style. I accessorize. My hair is always done. My shoes are cute to boot. But in reality, I’m pretty frumpy. And I think I qualify to be on What Not to Wear. But not for long. Because I’m gonna change my reality. I personally don’t feel it necessary to buy clothes at this time because I want to be at least a size 12 before I start shopping again. And I have a lot of clothes in sizes between 8-14 that I just can’t wear at this time. So it’s not like I won’t have anything to wear as I start to drop sizes. But as far as new things go, my plan is to start putting money on a Kohl’s gift card. That way over time, it will accrue and I can go shopping for me! {even tho we all know I’ll be shopping for the kids too! lol}
I have to learn how to put myself back at the top of the list. As a mom, that’s really hard. It’s a conscious effort. But it’s a must do. I deserve to have cute clothes and keep my hair done and be proud of the way that I look. And I’m worth the effort. So I’m gonna take my style from being in my mind to on my body!
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