It’s been a couple of days now since I got a friend request from JC. I’ve talked with a few friends and family…my mom and my hubby. I mainly talked about with a good friend of mine who knows the background and a friend who has been thru similar situation. My mom said it’s up to me, she doesn’t wanna talk to him, but that my stepfather won’t feel slighted or anything. And she just told me to be cautious. Most of my friends have said that I should accept the friend request. Just because he’s my facebook friend doesn’t mean that it’s an open door into my life. My husband is here to support me whatever decision I make.
I’m still not 100% sure…but what I’m leaning towards is accepting the friend request and letting him know that this is just a start. If you want access to my pictures and status updates that’s fine. Hell if you wanna read my blog that’s fine. If you wanna send me a message that’s fine. That’s all I’m up for right now. No planning of meeting. No let’s meet the grandkids. No none of that.
What I’ve been thinking, (On my day off The Locator was on Oprah) is that I don’t know what place he is in his life. What if he’s sick and doesn’t want to leave this world without giving it a shot with his (supposedly) only daughter? What if he wants to leave me in his will? (Haha! That’s funny) Or what if he’s going thru a stage in his life and he decided that he’s made a lot of mistakes in the past with our relationship and that he wants to try to make ammends? For me to deny that would be wrong on my part. I don’t have to open up my heart completely. I’m very cautious about that. But I can at least accept the fact that he is trying to open up the lines of communication. And hell, if worse comes to worse I could always just delete him! Ya know? So I guess I have come to my decision…I will accept the friend request and take it from there. Here goes nothing…
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