I’m not really sure what made me think about it, but the other day I realized that it was a year ago today that I lost my job. What a difference a year makes. In this time since losing a job that I was ready to leave, but on my own terms…we have had to move from an apartment that I liked to a duplex that is not energy efficient. There have been pros and cons to moving…i’m not going to go into all of that. But if you’re a reader of my blogs, you would know that we’ve had issues at this place for sure. Where we used to live was in my preferred school district, and now we’re across town and Brianna will be going to kindergarten at a school that I don’t like. I wish I could magically make us live in a 3 bedroom house in the Ridgewood Schoool district, which is also by my work. Aside from the financial hardship. The struggle of being a stay at home mom for a few months while I was unemployed. Losing friends that were “seasonal”. And friendships that I still have being neglected bc we have totally opposite schedules and lives now.
It makes me kinda sad. Not the job. Oh no! You couldn’t pay me enough to go back to that job. It’s the changes that had to be made. It’s the way it was done. It was the shiesty way that I was let go. I already wasn’t making good money, it’s just the point of it all you know? At least I can say I’m in a better place than I was last year. And even if specifically at this moment, I may not have everything going my way…for the most part in the course of this year, especially since starting my job back in November, things have been very promising. I’ve learned a few lessons. Hard lessons learned the hard way. And I’m better for it. So yeah, friends I had last year, I don’t have now. I know that every friend you have isn’t designed to stay with you for life. I know that there are friends for a season…some seasons are very short, some can be very long, me knowing that doesn’t stop me from being a bit sad about it. But i’m not really anymore, just am in reflection.
I can say for sure that I have done a good deal of growing over this past year. Growing pains are true in both the physical and non-physical sense. I’ve experienced a lot of pain, a lot of worry and stress, a lot of sadness after losing my job. Went thru a lot of “Why me Lord?” type of things. I can say in truth and in confidence that I’m in a much better place in life than I was this time last year. Not just career wise, but just in personal growth. And that’s what matters.
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