I just am in one of those kind of moods ya know? It’s like, I try to stay positive for the most part. I am human so sometimes I fall short. But today, was just one of those days. And I just need to be able to vent about it. Okay, so I don’t talk about work often, because there’s not a lot of positives and I don’t want to be a complainer like that. Plus, the fact that I work for a nationally recognized company, so you get the point. That being said, I work for a division of a bank, I work in auto loans customer service. In the call center. No customers can see me. I say all of that as a precursor because…today we got an update to the dress code. Dress code is business casual. I adhere to the dress code…where I have the problem is that they say no hoodies allowed. Ok, I get that. The problem is that they keep that building so damn artic year-round that how can I work when my fingers are cold to the bone? If you walked by my cube at work on any given day, you will see me, with a hoodie on and a scarf. Because it’s that freakin cold. So that rubbed me the wrong way. That and the fact that they want cellphones to be out of sight. I totally understand not wanting us to be on our cellphones when we’re working with customers. But when I’m not on a call, and it’s slow, I will look at my cellphone. I have children. Therefore if my kid’s school or daycare calls me, I need to be able to answer right away. I don’t know if it’s an emergency or not until I answer the call. So that doesn’t jive for me. It’s like this was just the icing on the cake of bullshit that I’m tired of dealing with. My whole job is about rules. What I can and can’t say. How i’m supposed to say it. I have to say it with enough empathy and enthusiasm but at the same time, don’t veer off from doing this like a robot because then there’s a problem. *Huge sigh*
You know what? I’m over it. Like a bridge. This all goes back to my vision list and the law of attraction. Monday when Brianna went back to school, I was really feeling that I wanted to be a stay at home mom (SAHM) but then how can that be? Doesn’t that contradict what I said I wanted? Don’t my kids frustrate the pure heck out of me? Well yeah they do, but when I think about why, it all goes back to work. My work is demanding, it’s draining, and it’s nothing fun about it. When you work in customer service, whether you want to or not, all of those customers who are negative and nasty with their attitudes, they’re pushing off all this negative energy onto you. And sure you can brush it off and take the next call…but guess what? I talk to over a 100 people a day. If it’s busy, it’s over 150…the percentage of those customers who are actually pleasant to speak with…I’d say maybe 10-20%. I’m tired of being stressed. I’m tired of it all when it comes to this subject. So I’ve decided to come to a clear decision about my vision. I think the reason why I’ve been so back and forth is because I have a degree and it sure would be nice to actually use it in my life ya know? What good does working in my degree do if I’m not happy about working at all?
It used to be, when I was staying at home, that all I wanted to do was work. But that was for money. If I worked from home and brought home good income, then that’s not being a SAHM, that’s me being a WFHM (work from home mom) and that’s what I want to be. So that’s what I’m declaring. I’ve already declared that I’m going to be a Diamond Coach this year, so I’m adding to that…I will be a WFHM by the end of the year. What I’m believing is that it will come to pass way sooner than that. I already thank God for it because I know it will be. I don’t think I intended for the blog to be this long…I just needed to get it out of my system. Thank you. Aside from the fact that I have to repeat myself over and over to my daughter right now about getting ready for bathtime, I am feeling much better just getting these thoughts out of my head. Speaking of repeating myself, I think something that irks me so bad about when I have to repeat myself to my daughter everyday, is because that’s my job. That’s what I do all day long. I explain the same info day in and day out to different customers. I get a lot of dim bulbs on my line and I have to say the same thing over and over to them. Frankly you just get tired of saying the same ish. So, yeah my decision has just been confirmed in my head. So thankful for that.
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