Lately I have been really working on my thoughts, my feelings and just overall keeping them on the up and up. I’ve been working on my vibrations and my frequency. Basically the Law of Attraction (LOA).
I would say for the past month or so I have been focusing on what I want. What I want the most is to move into my dream home. Honestly I would be happy to move period as long as it met our needs. But as you may have read in a previous post, I am testing the LOA. And the dream house called out to me, I didn’t call out to it, so that’s why it is my focus. I am in love with the home.
But I’m also realistic. And although I feel these good feelings and vibes, I still have work to do in my thoughts. I have been able to pinpoint where I may throw things off in the process…. I don’t have the “woe is me” attitude, but I can have the “I deserve that, why did she get that and not me?” or “when is it my time?” These are the areas I am consciously and deliberately working on. And knowing that these are the areas really helps me to NOT think those type of blocking thoughts.
Anyway, I already feel myself going on a tangent here so lemme rein it back in…jeez. I decided to try to bring things into my existence (manifest) that I really want. In no particular order really, because as I’m learning… everything comes in its right timing. And we really wouldn’t want everything to manifest right away. Some things take longer than others so that it lines up perfectly. So long story short because this is become longer than necessary….
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I have decided to try to start finding the small blessings in the day. This week Jordan had his kindergarten assessment at the doctor. He is developing right on target and that makes me happy. What makes me even happier is the fact that a couple of years ago we were at the doctor when Jordan had pneumonia. To go to the doctor for a checkup and find that all is well is truly a blessing. Because there are so many parents who are in an opposite situation, who are going thru very difficult times with children who are ill and to know what that’s like … that’s a reason to give Him praise right there!!!
The next day at work went well overall. Until the last 30 minutes. I received some news that really upset me. I allowed it to upset me. I allowed it to change my vibe from feeling good to feeling real shitty. {I’m getting better with my words but sometimes the sailor words are appropriate.} I felt so craptastic that when I got off 30 minutes later and I walked to my car I felt my heart racing. It wouldn’t stop. Then the tears came. And they wouldn’t stop.
What’s crazy is that I listen to mostly gospel music now and even that wasn’t helping. Finally I said to myself “Aria get it together. Stop it right now.” I was giving myself my Mom voice lol. But it worked. Within 5 minutes to arriving home I had prayed myself out of the panic attack. The tears had dried up and I wasn’t smiling but I wasn’t crying profusely anymore either. I said to myself “Aria, you’re right there, it’s all going to work out for you, that’s all I need to know.” It helped. I don’t want to walk into the door and my kids see tears coming down my face. That’s not the example I’m trying to set!
I am hoping that in a short time I can go into more detail as to why I even got all bent out of shape in the first place…maybe, maybe not. I could be on to bigger fish to fry by then J
After the kids were in the bed, I pulled up Melody’s blog Deliberate Receiving. I love her and her blog and how plain she makes it all for me. I mostly read her blogs at work. I’ve even subscribed to her on Youtube. She’s freakin awesome to say the least. She even has a free e-book on her site that I had never downloaded because, I read her blogs at work and I can’t download anything like that. It dawned on me that I hadn’t downloaded her book yet. Like what was I waiting for?!? So that’s what I did. I knew it would help immensely. Talk about light bulb aha moment times ten!!! If you are on the LOA journey, I suggest you stop reading my post and take a second to go subscribe to her. You’re welcome J
Now on to what gave me so much joy yesterday! Because it takes me a long time to tell a story. One of the things I’ve wanted for a while is a Sam’s Club membership. It’s been on my list. I didn’t want to pay the $45 though. I was willing to wait for another promotional opportunity to arise in order for me to get one. I daydream about going thru the aisles and filling up my cart with goods and food for my family. I daydream about filling up my pantry. It always makes me feel so good and happy. Well my friend gave me a card this week that her mother in law gave her for a free membership, that she didn’t need. She probably didn’t even know why she thought of me to give it to (lol) but I went to Sam’s Club and I became a member!!! Woop woop!!! At no cost to me and that truly makes me happy! I realized that I manifested that and it came in it’s own perfect timing. One of the biggest things I have to remember is that it’s not up to me to figure out the “how” in it all. I’m just supposed to receive it. This just makes me excited to see what’s coming next! Needless to say, I did my happy dance for hours J
I said ALL of that to say that I’ve been finding the small blessings to keep me happy. To keep me smiling. To keep me in the right vibration to receive what I want. I will continue to refine and focus my thoughts and I invite you to do the same or if not, you can just watch me J lol
Thanks so much for reading
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